It's it funny
xmydarkdesirex
I think it's funny how you boast about family first and yet....
you push away his side of the family because you don't like the fact that they don't cater to you
you push away his younger sisters, his mother, his father

Trust me, i know Bobi can be a little overbearing at times (more then a little, i have had my fair share of troubles with her)
but family is family
his sisters didn't do anything
so why push them away?

because your selfish. That's why
You want everything the way YOU want it and you don't care about how it makes others feel.

but family is first right?
guess not.
just your family.
that sounds about right.

Fucking CUNT
xmydarkdesirex
Yea
I said it


Tell people that i didn't tell Nick that i was pregnant until i was 4 months pregnant? WTF?
I was 5 WEEKS pregnant when i told him
Tell LIES about the way i take care of my child?
I swear you are the most self centered, egotistical, bitch faced cunt i have ever met.

I have NEVER said i regret having my child, and I did not KEEP my daughter because i wanted to try and keep Nick around
The day i told him i was pregnant i told him he did not have to be a part of this childs life. I told him he had a choice and i could do this without him. I decided to keep her regardless of his activity in her life.

ALSO! I NEVER SAID you should have aborted your child. I would NEVER say anything like that. I love how you told people that i said that. I said that you KNEW better, that you got pregnant on purpose and i STILL hold to that. Planned parent hood has lots of birth control options but i never said that you should have aborted your child AFTER the fact.

I know that this is stuff you posted on a public forum over a year ago but the fact that YOU have talked shit about me on a public forum to get people to go "Oh poor baby, what a horrible person she must be" because you don't have any FRIENDS who you can talk to about me with, makes YOU the pathetic one.

Sure i hoped that things would have worked out with nick and I when i was pregnant and even after the fact. I was a pregnant, hormonal, distraught woman who thought that was what i needed.

I didn't want to be the single mom with a baby daddy who had a baby with another woman, but trust me. YOU CAN HAVE HIM. I don't have time for his daily bullshit.

Whelp
xmydarkdesirex
Two years ago today i was left to be a single parent
I like to think i have been doing a pretty good job
Ally is well adjusted, smart and funny and everyone always tells me how happy she is all the time.

I am so lucky to have such supportive family and friends who help me when i need it the most
and though two years ago i was so afraid i wouldn't be able to handle a whole human being on my own
I have done just fine.

I love my little girl and it will be me and her forever <3

Just Sad
xmydarkdesirex
It's sad that you feel like you need to compare our kids

Get over your insecurities
Our children share the same father
neither is better then the other
I've thought about sinking to that level but never have because I share half siblings and care for them, regardless of our parents dislike for each other.

I guess you feel SO insecure that you have to put it that way.
Get over it.
Because if i really wanted to, i could disprove that theory right here and now.
But i'm not that petty.

#betterthenyours, how about #getoveryourissues

Life
xmydarkdesirex
Things change so quickly
I'm living in my apartment now
My mom is still stressing but, once she moves things will calm down between us
I have no qualms in my personal life
I have finally achieved some inner peace

School is going better then ever
Though my Geog class is SOOOOOO boring.

Now, i am sitting in my apartment
Texting some friends
thinking about how to decorate and have nothing but a smile on my face.

<3 Life, is good.

It was so nice
xmydarkdesirex
When i actually get to see you interact with our daughter
i can't help but smile
Seeing you hold her and hug her and kiss her
That's all i ever wanted
Though today was hard
and we had to see our baby girl hooked up to all kinds of wires
and worry that her little brain is going to be okay
it was still nice....
I miss SEEING how much you love her...

Curiosity killed the cat
xmydarkdesirex
Hmmm, so despite the fact that you can't even look me in the eye you can look at my instagram
No wait, not just MY instagram but one of my best friends instagram too.

Oh, didn't think i knew? Well, when you accidentally like pictures on not just MY insta but my friends, it's kind of hard not to know.

Oh and btw, you shouldn't talk -ish about me to people who talk to me on a regular basis. Even if it is something small.

Maybe instead of holding onto this stupid grudge that you have against me, you should try and extend an olive branch. Until you do, you're only making things harder on yourself.

Just sayin

All the things you missed
xmydarkdesirex
I wonder if you think about all the things you missed with OUR daughter as you go through them with your own
It's really sad that i have to put it that way, you weren't really around much when she was that age
this was when i had to fight with you to get you to spend any time with Ally.

The sadder thing is, is that you will always be realizing the every day things you're missing
as you go through them with her.

Oh well, it's really not my loss, it's yours.
I just keep regretting that day when ally starts asking for you, and i can't do anything about it.

Ugh my head
xmydarkdesirex
Sometimes i think about the old you
how you USE to be.
You were an awesome person, someone i could put trust
Now i can't even trust a word you say
someone who knew all the ways to make me laugh and smile
Now i just get irritated every time we talk
someone i always wanted to be around
Now i just try and get away as fast as i can
I use to think about how amazing of a father you would be
now i just find myself saying "What happened?!"

It hurts still, i do so much as a single mother. I'm lucky i get all the help i do from my mom
Doesn't stop me from getting sick and having to take care of ally on my own
Doesn't help with wanting to go to things and not being able to because i don't have someone to babysit.
Sometimes i wish i could just drop her on your door and say "Here, you take her for the week"
I want to relax and recover, take a breather for longer then a night but i don't get to.

Don't get me wrong, i love my daughter, i love that she is mine and i get to spend every day with her.
On occasion i get a break, your mother is kind enough to pick her up on Saturday after work and take her through sunday
but that shouldn't be her job it should be yours.

I would be okay with you picking her up and driving with her if you had a freaking license, but sadly in the last what....4 years? probably longer, you have done nothing about the fact that you don't have a legal license.
You use to be such a good person
such an awesome person

Why did that have to change

Still lonely
xmydarkdesirex
I am SOOO happy for Erika
sooo happy that she found someone she loves
someone that she can live with and be with

but for the last two years she has lived with me
if i needed someone i could just walk across the hall and snuggle with her
talk to her and she would be there
but now she's gone

I walked through the two rooms tonight and i just started crying
I really miss her,

Before when i was lonely she was there and i could just be with her
but now she's not and i feel so alone.

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