Sometimes i think about the old you
how you USE to be.
You were an awesome person, someone i could put trust
Now i can't even trust a word you say
someone who knew all the ways to make me laugh and smile
Now i just get irritated every time we talk
someone i always wanted to be around
Now i just try and get away as fast as i can
I use to think about how amazing of a father you would be
now i just find myself saying "What happened?!"
It hurts still, i do so much as a single mother. I'm lucky i get all the help i do from my mom
Doesn't stop me from getting sick and having to take care of ally on my own
Doesn't help with wanting to go to things and not being able to because i don't have someone to babysit.
Sometimes i wish i could just drop her on your door and say "Here, you take her for the week"
I want to relax and recover, take a breather for longer then a night but i don't get to.
Don't get me wrong, i love my daughter, i love that she is mine and i get to spend every day with her.
On occasion i get a break, your mother is kind enough to pick her up on Saturday after work and take her through sunday
but that shouldn't be her job it should be yours.
I would be okay with you picking her up and driving with her if you had a freaking license, but sadly in the last what....4 years? probably longer, you have done nothing about the fact that you don't have a legal license.
You use to be such a good person
such an awesome person
Why did that have to change